Im unorthodox, unconventional and a bit unusual. People think its cool to be so unbound by limitless creativity but it comes with drawbacks. Im Goth and it’s a curse, although I try to focus on the positive. I have the theories of a scientist, imagination of an engineer, and creativity of an artist. Im fascinated with philosophy and ethics and physics. My thoughts are quick spontaneous and sometimes unusual. I use my mind far more than my body. It's always been this way… even at an early age; I was fascinated with how things work. It may sound amazing to have thoughts so deep, but the drawbacks have been at the cost of social interaction. I've always been a loner to my thoughts and ideas, always drawing up images or stretching my brain around some new concept that NOBODY has ever thought. I've had many relationships, even engaged once, but always in the end, they left for someone else. Perhaps they grew bored of my ideas. I worry that I’ll be alone trapped inside myself forever to never be understood. I wonder if there is a person out there that could look past the physical to love the mental aspects of who I am... to embrace the philosophical spiritual and scientific. Maybe a person that is creatively curious about the world but also very patient with listening to me ramble will read this. I hope so. Its lonely in my life without the one to encourage and support me. Id move the mountains to be with her.